To you my beloved friend [re-edited]

i cried in my prayers,only allah knows why
i tried to smile but it last just for a while,
i denied the misses but i couldnt lie,
i keep hiding myself not becuz i want to say gudbye...
but i think dat is the best thing to do not to hurt you even just 4 a while...

i love u ajai..siyes i miss u more n more evryday...dats all i can say...tp windu pun xdpt paper,windu sowank2..wat sedeyh de r

sorry i didnt reply ur sms..i just dont know wat to say...shark masa tu pun asked me why i didnt reply ur msg..tp aku ckp xda paper,then dia marah2 plak xmsg kau,tp aku mls gak nak msg u...sbb nnti ada jer kita gado,ada jer silap ckp....ajai xper lah,jgn wisau,biar r aku sakit sowank2..drpda kau yg sakit..xper if aku sakit,kawan baek aku xda xperlah..tu budak bilik ada,classmate,doktor,nurse,mak,ayah ada..aku terima yg seadanya je..yg ada dah pergi..pe nak buat..reda je..aku pun xnak kacau kau,xnak wat kau pening2 pk..byk plak hati yg nak dijaga acap,sarah,afiq..bkn ker lebih mudah aku xda..kurang ciket beban kau...aku ada xmenang tgn plak kau nt..aku tulis camni jgn kau pk aku dah xkisah psl kau plak? kisah jer,setiap hari ckp pasal kau tanpa sbb...buktinyer ko tyelah tira,izzah,sarah,ayu,a'a...yg ekyn dekat giler ngn aku tu pun aku dah mls nak rapat..sbb msti kene mcm kau gak nnti...frust abis dah ni..tp if kau ada prob ker, i will always be there 4 u k..msg jer..

wat can i do!!!! what should i do!!!

should i wait,or should i go? is it worth it if i wait?...ajai yg kuat dengkur jaga kesihatan gak tau...aku pun xtau psl kau..kdg2 jer tye su..dulu laen lah setiap hari kau wat sumer aku tau..jaga diri tau..nurul hidayah ni dah jauh sgt dah...kau jgn r lupakan aku,sbb aku xpernah langsung lupakan kau..nnti if aku windu kau aku baca r sms kau,tgk gambar kau eh...huuu..