To you my beloved friend [re-edited]

i cried in my prayers,only allah knows why
i tried to smile but it last just for a while,
i denied the misses but i couldnt lie,
i keep hiding myself not becuz i want to say gudbye...
but i think dat is the best thing to do not to hurt you even just 4 a while...

i love u ajai..siyes i miss u more n more evryday...dats all i can say...tp windu pun xdpt paper,windu sowank2..wat sedeyh de r

sorry i didnt reply ur sms..i just dont know wat to say...shark masa tu pun asked me why i didnt reply ur msg..tp aku ckp xda paper,then dia marah2 plak xmsg kau,tp aku mls gak nak msg u...sbb nnti ada jer kita gado,ada jer silap ckp....ajai xper lah,jgn wisau,biar r aku sakit sowank2..drpda kau yg sakit..xper if aku sakit,kawan baek aku xda xperlah..tu budak bilik ada,classmate,doktor,nurse,mak,ayah ada..aku terima yg seadanya je..yg ada dah pergi..pe nak buat..reda je..aku pun xnak kacau kau,xnak wat kau pening2 pk..byk plak hati yg nak dijaga acap,sarah,afiq..bkn ker lebih mudah aku xda..kurang ciket beban kau...aku ada xmenang tgn plak kau nt..aku tulis camni jgn kau pk aku dah xkisah psl kau plak? kisah jer,setiap hari ckp pasal kau tanpa sbb...buktinyer ko tyelah tira,izzah,sarah,ayu,a'a...yg ekyn dekat giler ngn aku tu pun aku dah mls nak rapat..sbb msti kene mcm kau gak nnti...frust abis dah ni..tp if kau ada prob ker, i will always be there 4 u k..msg jer..

wat can i do!!!! what should i do!!!

should i wait,or should i go? is it worth it if i wait?...ajai yg kuat dengkur jaga kesihatan gak tau...aku pun xtau psl kau..kdg2 jer tye su..dulu laen lah setiap hari kau wat sumer aku tau..jaga diri tau..nurul hidayah ni dah jauh sgt dah...kau jgn r lupakan aku,sbb aku xpernah langsung lupakan kau..nnti if aku windu kau aku baca r sms kau,tgk gambar kau eh...huuu..

xda bnda nak wat....bowiiiiiink

tgk videocopilot jer r duk atas katil...tp best..haha...tgk andrew kramer yg giler2 tu ajar adobe after effects...knowledge!!! knowledge!! bebeh!! sem depan nak amek major in multimedia,ramai suh org amek...rasanya blom pernah pompuan majoring in multimedia...hope me and a'a will be the first in our batch...if boleh xnak amek major in advertising or corporate identity...doa kan saya dapat compete ngn dak2 jantan yg terer multimedia eh hahahahah...r ada lg nih!!! hahaha if berjaya in multimedia for my degree ni...straight away nak keje in motion graphic and video directing field...i wanna do it abroad...nak bawak diri..doa angan2 ni tercapai k...nothing is impossible, just do it!!! wish me luck!!!!!

"Dare to Dream"

For one who is a self starter and finishes what one starts,
For one who has studied and in the interim worked hard,
For one who has "Dare'd to Dream" and others dared to support

sad little chair,sad little me

Sad little chair,sad little me
lonely little chair,lonely little me
sick little chair,sick little me
praying little chair,praying little me
crooked little chair,crooked little me
and empty little chair,empty little me

limited activities..haha

-online on the bed

-watching movies on the bed

-berfikir on the bed

-drink on the bed

-eat bubur everyday on the bed

-sms on the bed

-stay in the room 24 hours

-cannot hug,play,talk,cuddle with aisyah sob3

-all alone in the room

-aiyo mummy keep mopping my room with dettol...



mkn ubat sampai mamai,ckp xbtol,ngantuk giler,tidoooooooooo jer,headache,dizzy, last2 blackout...solat kene ada org kejut kan..haish!!

xda perasaan ker per

sambil2 terlantar di katil 09..kuar r update facebook dak ni on my page...bleh dia ckp

"hello dak2 uitm y cuti skang ni...jgn nk blagak sgt ea...t masak r korg nk gnti kelas blik..silp2 smpi mlm bute kelasnye..tgk cam ktorg..de kes H1N1 cool je..da de org mati t bru kuarantin..bru gmpak cket..HAHAHAHA.."

apalah xda pemikiran sivik langsung..cakap tu pklah dulu..psychopath tol..kang kau yg kene baru rasa..sonok agaknyer org mati bg dia...btol lah kata dato' ahmad..certain org masuk universiti blajar tinggi2 bkn yer pandai pun,bkn jadi lg pandai...bertambah bodoh n kuang ajar adalah...

sobbing in pain

thank u sarah n sima...nasib dowank balik lewat gak...if x ntah2 org mati kat bilik..haha..dah r kat itm sumer dah balik..seram n sunyi...nak balik awal,xlarat giler...mak ayah nak jemput,terpaksa ckp org dah ok sob3!! xnak susah kan dowank...but thanx sima n sarah sbb jaga masa org sakit...ada gak yg care...finally dah smpi umah...sampai jer kat umah straight away mak bwk g hospital..hye tuhan jer yg tahu betapa sakitnyer aku....xpernah kene dmam mcm ni...pedih giler...kepala mcm nak pecah...hurmm doktor kata if xbaek2 lg kene dtg balik check darah...hope demam biasa jer r...takut gak sbb ada junior rapat ngn org dulu positive H1N1 kat KBM...wisau..semoga kawan2 yg laen xkan kene...n semoga yg demam tu akan sihat...amin

aku suspect HIN1 sob3!!!

actually kelmarin teman classmate g clinic..yelaah sian dia xda org nak teman..so org teman r dia..masuk jer klinik uitm..aduh masyaallah ramai giler sakit..dah r org tak pakai mask...so lantak r...pastu esoknyer rasa semacam jer badan,tekak rasa mcm nak tercabut,penaaat,sakit pale..harap2 mati cepat..hahaahha...sbb xtahan..sedeyh tau...ni lah akibat baek sgt..org laen dah ckp xpayah teman sbb tkt2 menjangkit...akhir nyer mengjangkit juga...pastu pg tadi pg r klinik lagi sekali..aduh ramai nyer org...then jmpa doktor,doktor bg ubat dulu..if teruk kene datang balik..amek darah...aaaaaaarrghh takut dowh...dah r org laen dah balik umah,kampung..org still stay kat s.alam ngn sarah..takut nak balik,nnti family kene plak..doa yer utk sayer..if kene tahan wad..jgn lupa melawat eh..haha..uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa..sedeyh

agak2nyer

agak2 nyer lama2 mst kau dah xsyg aku lg...msti sayang kau dah beralih arah kan? mst the love will fade away kan? tanda2 nyer aku dah nampak...sob3!! menciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..............aaaaaaaaaaaaaarggh...abis aku nak buat apa....terima yg datang yg ingin mengganti kan kau??? hurmmm if boleh..dah lama buat

Fill it and feel it

I wish that…would love me as…use to do, I wish…would love me more than…­ love…, I wish…could win ur…again…I wish…never met…., I wish u never met…coz I feel so envy, I wish we can be….again, I wish dat u would do the same things that I….do for ….before, I wish things gonna be….after this…., I wish….will realise what…did to me, I wish….can see how much I……for…., and I will keep………

Looks like the person dat I fought with b4,comeback again into my life…looks like the person dat im not close with b4, trying her best to fill in the blank inside of me…tkt2 nanti aku akan….but I don’t want ______________

pressure

pressure study..byk proposal kene wat..pressure bnda tu xselesai2 lg..jgn igt aku xkisah..ah malas lah..lalalala...blajar2!! utk hilang stress..kejam kah ayat aku haritu?? tp kau lg kejam

moga2!!

xsangka dia bleh ckp mcm tu..dia maseh xsedar gak nyer apa dia tu ckp salah,dia xsedar apa yg dia wat towards me...dia xsedar apa dia wat kat org sekeliling dia..dia xsedar dia dah lupa diri.dia xsedar agak nyer yg dia terlalu preoccupied and too obsses to someone sehingga dia abaikan org laen...semoga org yg syg kau sblm ni xkan diambil oleh org laen yg lebih kenal erti menghargai..semoga allah sedarkan dia..insyaallah..amin

Uitm terlalu crowded dan giler

smlm dato' ahmad dtg mengajar creative communication..then masuk2 jer dia terus cerita that dak2 a.d grafik and fashion kene pindah P.J kat jln osman..dah r tempat tu pack,jam, senang citer serabut r mcm bulu tiak..n sume dak2 cos laen akan pindah ke puncak alam..sedikit demi sedikit...dan uitm s.alam ni hye utk budak master n ph.d jer...indon btol!!! dah r secara mengejut kene pindah..aduh2!! takdir2!!

My Ifluenza A

Na na na na na

I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.

The day you slipped away.....
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh

Na na
Na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't ooooooooooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly


The day you slipped away...
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh


I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back


Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you.

Goodbye

selalu nyer kawan aku terpaksa pergi meninggalkan aku,akhirnya turn aku pulak utk meninggalkan

dowank...maybe aku xkan ada lagi kat itm shah alam ni lagi tp sem dpan lah baru aku pergi blajar

tmpt laen :P..dah lama aku tggu2kan saat ni..lebeh elok aku pergi dr org laen yg pergi..hurmmm xsangka

dalam masa 7-8 bulan ni,mcm2 berlaku..xsangka dlm jangka masa yg pendek ni boleh mengubah

segala-galanya..ni sume adalah takdir yg telah tertulis..sume ni telah Allah rancang..akan aku terima

dengan reda dan tawakal..aku xnak sedeyh lg lah lpas ni..cukup sumer tu,byk lg masalah yg perlu

aku fikirkan...skang ni matlamat hidup aku ialah..1st jadi hamba allah yg berguna..pastu abiskan

degree ni with flying colours result,keje tinggi2,jadi kaya,turn aku tanggung family aku plak

and tlg org susah...ahahahaha...bye2 ekyn,tira,sari n kengkawans yg laen..wasalam

sowi

sowi ekyn..sowi wat mcm tu..xda mood until today..sory mgkir janji lg sory..love u

dah kat itm dah

rasa mcm a bit awkward ciket..sbb dah lama duk umah...aduh windu family gak...hope to see u here..dadaaaaaa

Tomorrow im going back to Uitm..haih

spptnyer tarikh reg kolej ahad ni...tp si gedik hahaha kata dia reg dis saturday...sbb nak book bilik bwh..malas nak naek lif..bahaya n gayat katanya..hahaha..so org ikot r dia balik sabtu ni..dia ajak duk satu level..so harap bleh r duk satu level ngn dia..best gak..hehehe..mcm time dip dulu satu level ngn dia...harap2 xramai r..dah r sabtu dak2 baru masuk..siyes msti ramai giler...xper r yg penting sampai itm ngn selamat..xsabar nak jmpa sumer memember n junior2!! see ya there!!! welcome back everybody!!! study!! study!!

Hope

Theres nothing to do with her...naper tiber2 plak kau babitkan dia..apa kene-ngena bnda ni ngn dia..kau kata kau kenal dia lebeh dr aku kenal dia..i guess u dont..aku sgp bersumpah dia xbgtau pun yg kau xdpt melaka,aku jer yg asyik tye psl kau...dia xciter paper pon pasal ur going to malacca,aku tahu pun kat blog kau..she even told me dat dont wury when she's gone bcos u r going to b here in shah alam wit me...sometimes kan ajai to get to know someone..u dont even need a week,a month or a year...kau xperlu kan masa yg bgtu pjg utk kenal seseorg...if u dont agree its ok...ajai2..dat post not for you..pelik jugak sbb kau terasa...so maknanya kau rasa kau x appreciate aku lah..mcm ni aku xpernah rasa yg kau xpernah appreciate aku..tp tu dulu jer...awal2 dulu,time aku btol2 kenal kau...dan naper topik appreciate ni ko persoalkan lg..bkn ker aku dah ckp yg dont question abt dis anymore..aku xleh pakse pon utk kau appreciate aku..saper aku..mana bleh aku suka2 nak suh org appreciate aku..appreciate is a natural things to do..it comes from within...xperlu suruh2...tp aku tahu yg kau mmg value friendship..i dont have to wory abt dat...pastu aku xsuka r kdg2 kau asyik put the blame on urself,kau ckp sory! sory! sory! u didnt to do anything..aku rasa aku yg bersalah,im asking to much..buktinyer ko tgk sendiri wat happened to my previous frenship...tamo ckp sory lg...aku xsuka...aku xleh marah kau lah ajai..because its u..ntah r xtau nak ckp pe lg....hurmm maybe dis thing happened bcos we both change,things change...u'd change,and i'd change..aku pun rasa yg aku berubah selepas kau berubah...i always wish dat someday the old u would come back,i just want the old u..but it wont happen...aku pun nak dis frenships back,i want u back..but how i dont know...u r my bestfren ever..but seriously ajai if this things dont workout..i thing u would be my last bestfren..aku xkan cari lg kawan baek...i give up...im sory ajai cos i put u through dis..im sory..dats all i can say...


~its hard to find a person like u,hard to leave n impossible to forget